Nigri Felis

If you want your life to be a magnificent story, then begin by realizing that you are the author and everyday you have the opportunity to write a new page - Mark Houlahan Looking through my old diaries I have found that I am always carrying three quotes with me. In almost every diary I have a little piece of paper with three quotes. The first one is above. Here's the second and the third one will be at the end of this post. The biggest adventure you can ever take is to live life of your dreams - Oprah Winfrey I am a huge fan of quotes. I pin a lot of them on my Pinterest. When I read them I feel so full of energy and so positive about my life. Even if I like them all, only those three are always with me. I cannot explain why but I feel like those have the most impact on me and I fully agree with them. Whenever I do feel bad or I lack any motivation I read them and suddenly I want to take control on my life. I feel positive about what future will bring me. It isn...

I see some light in front of me. I am running but I cannot move. I try to run faster. I move my legs faster but I am still in the same place. Someone or something is haunting for me. I can feel its eyes on me. I look around yet I see no one. Everywhere darkness. I am petrified. I feel cold. It is behind me. I want to run away but I cannot move. I scream while it grabs my hand and pulls me away from the light I see in front of me. I wake up for the third time this night. It was only just a dream. Rather a nightmare than a dream. I get up from the bed and open a window. I want to breathe some fresh air. It is almost 3am and this night is one of the worst so far. I cannot sleep and if I do I dream nightmares. It was never like that. I had nightmares before, but always only one at the time. Then I was falling asleep and dreaming of nothing. Lately those nightmares are happening more often. I do not know what is going on with me. Maybe I know but I am too scared to admit it. Th...

Life is simple. That’s what I told myself waking up today. I looked at the face next to mine and I felt nothing but happiness inside my little heart. The sun was raising up slowly while I watched my love sleeping. Creepy, I know. But I couldn’t resist not to look. I studied his body as if I had an exam to pass. I started with his big manly hands which are my favourite . I know these hands will never let me go easily. They will hold me when all I will want to do is fall.  Through his arms and chest which are muscled not too much but just perfect. I touched His skin and under my pads I felt his little hair he has all over the body. I thought once I would not be with a man with so much hair but look at me now. I wouldn’t change Him for a world. I put my whole palm down and immediately sensed the beating heart. To His face which is the most handsome face in the universe. For me of course. I combed His hair and He turned away. At 5am everything seemed so calm and be...

I have been away for a long time now. Almost a month I believe. I am truly sorry for that. Lately I lost motivation to do anything at all. My days were full of wondering about a sense of life. I could not find any so I started to be more depressed. Luckily for me I have few people around me who knows exactly how to make me live again. I will not say I do not feel sad or lack of motivation because those feelings are still around. What I want to say is that those people remind me of what I love to do and how I feel while doing these things. It took me a while to recover enough and start to organize my life again. It took me a while to think positive and do not give up. I am thankful today for people I have chosen to be around me and for people who stayed when I thought I did not need them.